“You are going to mow in this heat,” my next-door neighbor asked me as I was getting ready to start the mower. “It’s way too hot to mow.”
It was late last Friday afternoon when the oppressive heatwave of 2019 was descending upon us. I was preparing to do my regular Saturday chores since my husband and I were going to spend the weekend in Rockland with friends and wouldn’t be around for the weekend for a more appropriate, less heat intensive time to work on the lawn.
I explained this to my neighbor who offered her condolences at my Friday afternoon ‘luck’. “Well, sometimes life sucks,” I said, laughing. “That’s not what you say and write about in the paper,” she joked back. Dang! She caught me…….
She is correct and it is true. I often write about the upsides to life, seeing things from an Anne of Green Gable, Pollyanna, it’s all good and positive perspective. And, for the most part, that is true. But – as I have stated many times before, for every truth that exists the opposite is also true. And that includes me and the way I maneuver around in the world. If you don’t mind, I’m going to share that other side with you because – after all – I don’t want to get “caught” again.
Although I do care about appearances – the way I present myself, the way I speak, the way I write – all have an impact on me and does have some power over me. But in the end, authenticity takes over and sometimes ruins all appearances I put forth in my glass half full lifestyle. Although, at times, I know this can have detrimental effects, I also am aware that you can’t fool people. Intelligent people can see through a façade anyway – so why not be who you are at any given moment, right?
I think I come by optimism innately, but the darn thing is – I am human who vents too much, spits venom when I am angry, stresses unnecessarily on publication day and won’t back down when I argue with my husband (because, you know – I’m always right.)
Being human definitely has its downsides – and if I’m not careful, I’ll let the “appearances” part take over, letting the feelings of failure slowly creep in my mind and make itself way too comfortable when I’m not up on my game.
When this happens, I remember the following quote by Stephen Dimmick:
“Being optimistic doesn’t mean I don’t get angry. Being optimistic doesn’t mean I don’t get sad. Being optimistic doesn’t mean I don’t speak my mind – sometimes peacefully and sometimes with burning fire. Being optimistic doesn’t mean I won’t argue with you or even walk away from you. Being optimistic simply means I know the glass as full and overflowing with goodness despite living in my human condition.”
So, there you go! The truth is out.