This morning, as I busily prepared the newspaper for publication, I received an email from my past self. Yes. You read that correctly. It was an email from me of the past to me of the present.
The email began as follows:
Dear Future Me,
It's been a month since you began your journey as managing editor of The Windham Eagle. So, I (a.k.a. past me), want to check in to see how things are going.
First of all - and this is really important: Have you found your equilibrium yet?
What a perfect day, I thought, for that email and specifically that question to arrive in my inbox. Wednesdays tend to be very hectic, although very exciting, days as Melissa (layout and ad designer), Gayle (copy editor) and I work fast and furiously to get the paper, such as the one you are holding now, completed and sent off to the printers by 5 p.m.
Despite the busyness of the day, I took a moment to pause. Have I been able to steady that rocking boat I happily jumped into on January 2?
I’m very surprised and happy to say that in a month’s time, I have found a level of balance that I guessed would take longer.
I’m not saying I have got it all together perfectly and I’m very aware that I will be forever learning the new ways to row that dinghy in the big blue sea, but I think I finally found home. I have found a home in a career that never once crossed my mind as I frantically tried to find that “perfect” profession during my twenties and thirties (and well, forties too).
Needless to say, I am a late bloomer and it has taken a while to find my voice, so to speak. But now I wish I could write an email back to the past me. That me at age 20 or 30 and tell her to hang in there and not work so hard at “finding herself.” I would definitely tell her to lighten up. Because, now that I have a moment to pause and look back, I see how that long and winding road lead me to where I am today. The process - all the experiences - is what brought me here. And I truly could not be happier. Well, I’d be pretty happy if my dinghy were a yacht.
*Do you want to receive a letter from your past self? It’s easy. Go to www.futureme.org and write your own email.